Today I am off to help my mother househunt. I’m not expecting we’re going to find THE ONE on this trip, but we’re scheduled to see seven properties and I’m hoping by the end of the day we’ll both have a better idea of what she likes (or doesn’t like) and what she is looking for in her new life (and it really is a new life and not just a new residence as she will be moving from the eastern end of the province to the south, leaving a rural area for a heavily urbanized one, and changing from a sprawling four bedroom house in the woods to a condo or a townhouse).
The process of selling her house and preparing to move has been very stressful for my mother. She’s going to leave behind the house in which she’s lived for the past twenty-six years, the house where she raised her children and the house where she was left behind when they went out into the world, the house where she celebrated her marriage to my stepfather and the house where she sat with him until he drew his last breath.
That house has a lot of memories tied up in it.
When I left it (at the point where I thought it might have been for the last time) earlier this month, I took pictures of the yard while Q. was loading the kids into the car. The sun was out. There was fresh snow. It was beautiful, but both Mum and I knew how desolate it would become later in the winter.
Mum had tears in her eyes as I snapped the last few photos.
“This house needs a family,” I told her.
“I know,” she said. “It’s just hard for me to realize that my family has left.”
As hard as it is to go, Mum wants a different life now. She doesn’t want to rattle around in that house, alone as she ages, and hundreds of kilometres away from her children and grandchildren.
And so, over the past year, she has taken the steps to make this move possible.
I’m really proud of my mother.
She has been extraordinarily brave.
It takes great courage to be willing to pack up the life you have known longer than any other.
The process of choosing the new house has been hard for her. She isn’t quite sure what she wants her new life to look like. It’s hard for her to imagine the possibilities. It’s easy for her to get overwhelmed.
That’s where I come in.
Over the past year I’ve been my mother’s unofficial financial advisor and real estate consultant.
I helped her to make a budget and a spreadsheet that would let her track her savings.
I’ve gently helped her come to accept the reality that she will need help from her daughters to be able to buy a property in the new market that is not either a hovel or so small as to make her feel claustrophobic (neither of which we want for her).
I’ve asked her the hard questions, sometimes more than once over several months, to try to help her identify her priorities (two bedrooms, at least some outdoor space, lots of light, a good kitchen, a decent walk score and access to transit).
I’ve offered advice on online property listings.
And tomorrow, I’ll be with her when she first looks at properties after she’s sold her house.
It’s going to be real tomorrow (I think) in a way it hasn’t been before when Mum’s looked at places.
Now she’s actually in a position to buy one.
I expect that will feel a bit overwhelming too.
It will be good for her to have company.
I spoke to Mum on the phone yesterday, when I was eating a (late) lunch while writing my seminar paper for Thursday, and she was in the middle of the long drive from her old home to what will become her new.
We chatted about our plan for Wednesday.
Mum told me that she’s continued her practice of gratitude: every day she writes three things in her journal that made her happy or for which she is grateful.
My Mum has given me so much.
I’m so glad I can do something for her.