A couple of weeks ago I went back to my clinic.
I know, I know.
I wrote here about how we were done with the clinic. DONE. Never returning.
I meant every word of it too.
And then, right around the same time that I reached my conclusion, the Ontario government announced that they were going to honour their promise to fund one IVF cycle (for any woman under 43, regardless of family status).
I will admit, that gave me pause.
I thought about it. I really thought about it.
And then I decided that their announcement didn’t change things, even if they had everything in place to start funding before the end of the year (which is a big if).
I realized that I wouldn’t go back to the clinic even if they PAID me.
So what changed?
Well, remember that cycle where I cut out dairy before ovulation and promptly ovulated on day 18?
The luteal phase from that cycle felt weird. Different from the last two.
And when I hit 12 dpo, and my temperature still hadn’t dropped (which it had never done before) I got curious.
At 17dpo, I went back into the clinic.
The betas followed:
19dpo: 1476 (doubling time 36 hours)
22dpo: 5851 (doubling time 36 hours)
25dpo: 13914 (doubling time 57 hours)
They never called me (at my request) with the fourth beta as by that point I had taken up residence in Crazytown over the prospect of multiples, because the betas were higher than either of my two previous pregnancies (including the one that started as a twin pregnancy) and they were doubling faster. You were spared all of this angst because one of my sisters was on vacation, and I needed to tell her before I posted on the blog as both my sisters read it. When I managed to link up with her via Skype (the day before the fourth beta) she helped me pack my bags to move out of Crazytown, as she’s a scientist and she can crunch the numbers properly and I trust her. I knew that another fast doubling time would send me back over the edge, so I opted not to know.
Yesterday was the ultrasound.
And we saw this:
ONE baby. Measuring 6w2d. With a heartbeat of 114.
It is still early.
I have been here twice before, with only E. to show for it.
But it looks like we’re getting one more shot at this whole family of four thing.
We’ll take it.