How far along? Thirty-two weeks.
Sleep: This week has been great. I’ve been to the loo once every night, but I’ve been able to get right back to sleep again. I’ve started doing what a friend at my prenatal exercise classes was doing- keep all the lights off, keep my eyes closed as much as possible, and try not to let my brain wake up! Thus far it seems to be working. I also often wake up for the loo trip to discover that I’ve kicked the extra pillows off the bed…but I don’t think I’d like to try sleeping the entire night without them.
How am I feeling physically? I was feeling really pregnant and irritated with this earlier in the week, but then we had some warm weather, and the paths are now clear of all snow and ice. I was walking yesterday in my regular shoes, not my boots, for the first time in months. It made a HUGE difference in my mood. I was able to walk faster, and I felt more like my normal self. I’ve decided that 32 weeks is just too early to start feeling super pregnant, so I’m determined not to let all the exercise slide (even if I have admitted the exercise bike is so not going to happen). Next week I will finish up my prenatal exercise classes, and I’m considering buying a few more just so I can keep up with the yoga at least. I’ll miss my friends otherwise!
I am definitely much less hungry than I was back around 26 weeks. This is partly because I feel full faster, so I’m not eating as much in one sitting, but I’m also not eating very much in between meals. Maybe an apple in the afternoon, or a handful of nuts or some yoghurt. In the morning I rarely eat between breakfast and lunch. Q. continues to provide nutritious and delicious meals on a regular basis. I am SO spoiled. Last night it was veggie stir fry with homemade satay sauce- yummy! He also made an apple/pear pie on the weekend when my sister was coming for dinner, so we’ve been eating the leftovers every night for dessert. It’s the one thing that’s kept me from indulging in the chocolate fudge cake craving I’ve had now for weeks. I don’t get it- if I do go and buy cake, it will never live up to my expectations- it will be too dry, or not fudgey enough, or something. I think I’m envisioning the Platonic ideal of ‘cake’ and I just can’t bring myself to realize that any actual cake will be a disappointment as a result. Sub.way sandwiches are starting to look really good again, which is funny as I haven’t wanted to eat them since the first trimester (when I wanted to eat them pretty much ALL the time).
How am I feeling emotionally? Had a bit of a hormonal week that hit its nadir on Sunday when Q. was cooking dinner and I decided to have a wail about whether or not we’d made the right decision. Q. very sensibly decided my blood sugar had crashed and made me a snack. He was probably right. But it boggles my mind that the man has absolutely NO DOUBTS about parenthood, or worries, or anything. He is just 100% excited. I think it is partly a difference in our personalities, partly a result of the fact that I’m the one growing the baby and am thus much more aware of how I’m changing, and partly a recognition that my life will change more than his when the baby comes, and I’m more worried about balancing career, etc. since I’m still in school and not yet settled. But I have all this ambivalence bottled up inside of me, and he is just super ready to bring the baby home. He sees the whole thing as an adventure. Case in point: he came home the other day really excited because he’d found a conference we could go to in Newfoundland in the fall. Q. was excited because we’ve never been to Newfoundland and we both really want to go, and he can make his uni pay for his trip and some of the accommodation costs if he’s giving a paper at the conference. He loves subsidized holidays. The complicating factor is the previous week we have a family wedding to attend…in Saskatchewan. Q. figured we’d just fly from the wedding to Newfoundland, have a holiday, then go to the conference and then fly home. I just thought it sounded like chaos. But I also don’t want to be the sort of mother who never goes anywhere or does anything because it sounds difficult or frightening. And babies are supposed to be easy to travel with at that stage because they’re not mobile. So we’ll see.
I am stressed about our poor stressed-out cat. She is still over grooming, and the bald patch on her leg is getting bigger by the day. Fel.iway, extra play time and extra cuddles don’t seem to be enough to relieve her anxiety, and I’m just not sure whether I should try to more actively manage it now, or whether I should just ride it out, let her keep her coping mechanism, and see what happens when the baby comes. It could be that the baby’s arrival will actually relieve the anxiety, as I’m positive it’s related to worry about me and what is going on. Or it could make the anxiety SO much worse as she’ll be jealous and confused. Given we still need to do a whole lot of furniture moving around, and painting, I’m a bit worried that will send her off the deep end. She over grooms in front of me, which isn’t usual, and suggests that I’m not a source of comfort. We’re going away for a couple of days, so I’ll be interested to see what the patch looks like when we get back- whether my absence makes it worse, or lets her calm down. I am trying to ignore the over grooming, and to keep from worrying too much about her, as if she picks up that I’m stressed about her, that will just make her more stressed and lead to a vicious circle. But it’s hard to see her obviously worried and not be able to do something to fix it.
What have I done this week to get ready? I did call this week to see if our crib was in. Turns out the supplier decided a couple of weeks ago just to stop shipping that crib, and while the company thought they had called everyone, I obviously got missed. They were very apologetic, and gave us a great price on an alternative. So for an extra $20 we got a much better quality crib (better wood). And it will be available for pickup from this Friday, so we’ll be able to go out and get it sometime next week when my Dad is here with a car. I want to get the crib set up asap a) to see if it will fit in our bedroom, and b) if it does, to make sure stressed cat has the chance to get used to having it in there, given that’s her usual comfort spot.
Best moment? Q. is convinced he could hear the baby moving around yesterday when he put his head to my belly to see if he could hear the heartbeat. He was SO excited. It is super cute to watch him.
Movement? Lots of wriggles and pushes now. Q. can feel them even when his hand isn’t directly over where the movement is. Pretty sure I’ve still got feet pushing up above my navel. Bump really does seem pretty chilled out, which is awesome. S/he does seem prone to hiccups- we had at least four cases of them this week.
What I miss? Having a non-stressed cat.
What I’m looking forward to? Our childbirth classes- they start next week!
Milestones? We now have less than two months until the due date!