It boggles my mind that I can have had two days to prepare for this news, can be expecting this news, can have practised how to respond to said news (i.e., do NOT cry on the phone with the lovely nurse who has to make these calls and listen to sad women weep all day), and yet I still feel like someone has ripped my heart out and ran over it multiple times. With a tank.
Beta was negative.
I am just SO tired of being broken. Of wondering when this is going to work. Of wondering if I’m doing something wrong.
This is so much worse than a bfn.