how long the HCG shot stays in your system? I know I could have been poas from the day after the shot to watch the false positive disappear, but that was way more stress than I needed this week.
I ask because my poor bbs are still sore and changing in colour (darker)- which I know is an early pregnancy sign, and I didn’t have ANY symptoms with my bbs last month, but it’s probably still the HCG kicking around. Oh horrid medications, how I hate your side effects.
This has been a weird week. I’ve been up at uni a lot, getting organized. Then I come home and Q. and I pack like maniacs (we are pretty much done except for stuff we are still using). Then at some point in the evening (usually about 30 minutes after taking the evening progesterone) I freak out and crash and have to lie down and think calming thoughts.
I’m worried that my body can tell I’m stressed and it will reject any fertilized eggs that wanted to implant. Because as much as I try, moving house is stressful and starting a new degree, especially a five year one with a 100,000 word dissertation at the end of it, is stressful, and I can’t change that.
So I try and take deep breaths, stay relaxed, go for walks, and hope. At the same time I can feel myself cushioning my emotions for the blow I expect to receive on Tuesday. We’re not home testing, so we’ll have to wait for the call. My sister is having a party that night to celebrate her arrival in the city last year, so if it’s a negative at least I can partake in the beer.
I have non-blogging internet friends who have become very dear to me in the course of this process. Two of them were in the tww (a week ahead of me because of my slouchy ovaries). Two IUIs with multiple eggies. Both just got bfns. There are eleven of us who post together, and have since January. In that time, four of us have gotten pregnant. One chemical pregnancy, one missed miscarriage (her fourth at the exact same point- she has pretty much given up on carrying her own babies and is now investigating surrogacy and adoption), one miscarriage at ten weeks, and one sticky pregnancy (we hope- currently at about nine weeks) after a chemical pregnancy. The rest of us? Nothing.
Lately the mood on our site has been a little down as the reality sinks in that we’ve been together for almost the length of time to grow a baby, and yet only one of us is pregnant. (All of us were ttcing long before January). I know that these ladies will be friends for years to come, and that we will see each other through our eventual pregnancies.
But sometimes I can’t help thinking that said pregnancies are taking an awfully long time to appear.