First of all, thank you so very very much for your words of comfort and support. It is appreciated more than I can say.
I took a large chunk of the weekend to mope and feel sorry for myself and to cancel social engagements where I would have to make meaningless small talk with people I [...]
Archive for the ‘TWW’ Category
Head up, shoulders back
Posted in Emotions, FET, TWW on November 2, 2009 | 2 Comments »
Expected but still wretched
Posted in Emotions, FET, TWW on October 30, 2009 | 7 Comments »
It boggles my mind that I can have had two days to prepare for this news, can be expecting this news, can have practised how to respond to said news (i.e., do NOT cry on the phone with the lovely nurse who has to make these calls and listen to sad women weep all day), and [...]
Oh the irony…
Posted in Emotions, FET, TWW on October 28, 2009 | 10 Comments »
Well, if you’d asked me this morning, I’d have said there couldn’t possibly be a worse answer than a negative from my beta.
Turns out I was wrong.
My beta came back at 3. So I’m in low beta limbo (= hell) for the next two days until I can go back in on Friday and confirm the inevitable: [...]
When PIO shots become a real PITA
Posted in FET, Medications, TWW on October 25, 2009 | 2 Comments »
There isn’t all that much to report at chez Turia. Wednesday is beta day, and it’s a lot closer than it used to be, which is good. At the moment, I’m expecting a bfn, but I can’t tell if I really think it’s a bfn, or if I’m just telling myself that’s what I think [...]
The trouble with optimism
Posted in Emotions, FET, TWW on October 18, 2009 | 8 Comments »
Everyone is so optimistic about this cycle. My forum is full of women who are CONVINCED that this is going to work. My family and friends (the ones who know what is going on) are POSITIVE that THIS IS IT (insert exclamation marks and huge smiles). Even Q., who is always optimistic, even immediately after [...]
Ugh
Posted in Emotions, IVF, TWW on May 23, 2009 | 12 Comments »
I’ve been thinking about what to say with this post. I knew what was coming because I took a hpt yesterday. Normally I avoid them like the plague, but I had to see my endocrinologist and I figured if I were pregnant, he’d want to know.
It was negative. The beta today only confirmed what I [...]
9dp3dt
Posted in IVF, TWW on May 18, 2009 | 8 Comments »
I really wish my body would stop coming up with something different to keep me guessing. Every.single.cycle, it seems something has to change. This time? It’s cramping. It started yesterday morning before I got out of bed. It was really noticeable in the afternoon after I’d spent the morning pottering around in the veggie patch [...]
4dp3dt
Posted in IVF, TWW on May 13, 2009 | 6 Comments »
I’ve spent the last couple of days trying to figure out what’s been going on with me.
The problem is that I’ve been noticeably short of breath. Not all the time- but if I’m walking for more than a few minutes, or climbing even one flight of stairs, I catch myself puffing way more than is [...]
BEST possible news!
Posted in IVF, TWW on May 9, 2009 | 11 Comments »
Oh, I am so elated, I hardly know where to begin.
All SIX embies were still alive and kicking (or splitting, or whatever it is that embies do). And they all looked fantastic- Grade 1 (best possible). Dr. L was seriously over the moon. He said one looked so good he “wanted to name it right [...]
Ok…deep breath.
Posted in Emotions, Medical issues, TWW, ttc on February 8, 2009 | 5 Comments »
BFN. Again.
I was pretty much expecting it. Was back to feeling completely normal by yesterday.
It’s more resignation than disappointment or sadness this time, I think. The IUIs aren’t working. I don’t know why. All I can do is hope that the laparoscopy finds something. At least then there will be a reason for this.
Is it [...]
