– For the last week, E. has started nursing again before he goes to bed. Some of the feeds have been very short and distracted, but some have been good, solid drinks with lots of cuddling. I don’t know what changed- I’ve been offering every night, and for three weeks he would just turn his [...]
Archive for the ‘PhD’ Category
Making progress (on all counts)
Posted in Nursing, PhD, Running, Sleep on April 17, 2012 | 3 Comments »
On my way
Posted in PhD, Writing on March 15, 2012 | 1 Comment »
I put my butt in the chair. And a week, and four writing sessions, later, I’ve got 4,500 words. I think most of them are crap- more like verbal vomit on the page. Still, 4,500 words is a lot of vomit, and even while reading it over this morning I figured some of it read [...]
Paralyzed
Posted in Baby, My addled brain, PhD, Sleep on March 2, 2012 | 9 Comments »
I don’t write much here about my life outside of mothering E. I’m the sort of person who likes to compartmentalize things, and keep them in their neat, ordered boxes. I have a filing cabinet in my head. I make to-do lists for my to-do lists. That sort of thing. And this space, most of [...]
Torn (yet more mother-guilt)
Posted in Baby, Emotions, PhD on October 27, 2011 | 2 Comments »
On the sleep front, all I’m going to say is that I sincerely hope E. is going through some weird developmental phase because the ‘two naps of thirty minutes each’ thing he’s done for the last three days is KILLING us. WAIT! I’m writing this post over a couple of days and just this morning [...]
Coming out of the infertility closet?
Posted in Emotions, Family, Friends, Midwives, PhD, Pregnancy on November 1, 2010 | 3 Comments »
So after the ultrasound on Thursday, Q. and I decided that we could stop keeping this baby a secret among our wider circle of friends, as we were both tired of lying about our plans for next year, why I wasn’t ever drinking, etc. And luckily we had a work gathering that same night, so [...]
The calm after the storm
Posted in IVF, PhD, Running on May 20, 2010 | 4 Comments »
I’m in a much better place than I was when I wrote that last post. And I want to say a very loud THANK YOU to the lovely ladies who commented. It was such a relief to realize that I was not the only one to have such feelings. It’s fascinating how my blog friends [...]
Going crazy. Slowly.
Posted in Emotions, Family, PhD, Running, ttc on May 6, 2010 | 3 Comments »
This is just one of the many reasons why my husband is so amazing, and why my “what if” would wreck my world if it ever came true. Q. and I ran a 10k recently. I’ve run half-marathons, but never raced a shorter distance before. We had a goal, but in early April one of [...]
Coming up for air
Posted in Emotions, PhD, ttc on April 28, 2010 | 2 Comments »
I passed. With flying colours, even. And while I would love to be able to say that I can now do absolutely nothing for the next couple of weeks, the truth is I have a couple of papers still to write, and a conference to present at in a few weeks, and then there’s that [...]
Another milestone?
Posted in Daily Life, Emotions, PhD on March 11, 2010 | 4 Comments »
Today is my two-year blogoversary. Wow. I’ll be honest- I hadn’t been aware of the date. It was literally a couple minutes ago when I thought to myself, I think I started my blog sometime in March. I wonder when that was…so I checked my archives and decided that since today is THE day, I [...]
A fresh start
Posted in Emotions, PhD, ttc on September 4, 2009 | 7 Comments »
*crawls out from under her rock, brushes off dust, and stares up, blinking at the sunlight* I’m back. First up, a confession. I LOVE September. I love the crispness in the air that comes at the end of the month, and the long, languid, golden twilights that come before in the Indian summer. I love [...]
