First of all, thank you so very very much for your words of comfort and support. It is appreciated more than I can say.
I took a large chunk of the weekend to mope and feel sorry for myself and to cancel social engagements where I would have to make meaningless small talk with people I [...]
Archive for the ‘Emotions’ Category
Head up, shoulders back
Posted in Emotions, FET, TWW on November 2, 2009 | 2 Comments »
Expected but still wretched
Posted in Emotions, FET, TWW on October 30, 2009 | 7 Comments »
It boggles my mind that I can have had two days to prepare for this news, can be expecting this news, can have practised how to respond to said news (i.e., do NOT cry on the phone with the lovely nurse who has to make these calls and listen to sad women weep all day), and [...]
Oh the irony…
Posted in Emotions, FET, TWW on October 28, 2009 | 10 Comments »
Well, if you’d asked me this morning, I’d have said there couldn’t possibly be a worse answer than a negative from my beta.
Turns out I was wrong.
My beta came back at 3. So I’m in low beta limbo (= hell) for the next two days until I can go back in on Friday and confirm the inevitable: [...]
The trouble with optimism
Posted in Emotions, FET, TWW on October 18, 2009 | 8 Comments »
Everyone is so optimistic about this cycle. My forum is full of women who are CONVINCED that this is going to work. My family and friends (the ones who know what is going on) are POSITIVE that THIS IS IT (insert exclamation marks and huge smiles). Even Q., who is always optimistic, even immediately after [...]
Almost time to get started
Posted in Emotions, ttc on September 29, 2009 | 2 Comments »
First up, I’d just like to say thanks for the comments on my last couple of posts. You always wonder when you take a big break from blogging whether anyone will stick around to see if you ever reemerge, so it was very nice to see some old friends and some new faces. I’m still pretty [...]
Weight (less)
Posted in Emotions, ttc on September 15, 2009 | 6 Comments »
Yesterday morning I hopped on the scale, and my wedding weight was staring back at me. It’s my happy weight- the weight where I feel full of confidence. It’s taken me all summer, but the ten pounds that the past two years of treatments and emotional eating have stacked on are gone.
And this time, this [...]
A fresh start
Posted in Emotions, PhD, ttc on September 4, 2009 | 7 Comments »
*crawls out from under her rock, brushes off dust, and stares up, blinking at the sunlight*
I’m back.
First up, a confession. I LOVE September. I love the crispness in the air that comes at the end of the month, and the long, languid, golden twilights that come before in the Indian summer. I love the first [...]
Going quiet
Posted in Emotions, ttc on June 22, 2009 | 5 Comments »
I don’t think I’ll be posting much on here over the summer. I’ll update next week after our WTF appointment with our f/s, but since I’m taking a break from all treatments, I’m trying to make it a good clean break. I’ll return when we gear up again in the fall. I’ll probably get behind [...]
News, unexpected
Posted in Emotions, Friends, Medical issues, Medications, Thyroid on June 8, 2009 | 6 Comments »
It’s been a rough weekend.
It started on Friday with a call from my endocrinologist. My thyroid is out of whack, again. He wants to up my dose from 0.75 daily to 0.1. I know there’s a 0.885 pill out there, so that must mean it’s significantly out of whack, since we’re jumping a pill.
The blood [...]
Case in point
Posted in Daily Life, Emotions, IVF on May 29, 2009 | 10 Comments »
(Continuing on from my earlier post today about my total inability to control my emotions at the moment…)
I went to yoga this afternoon, only to discover that there was a new instructor for that class. This is usually enough to seriously disrupt my routine, as I like the usual instructor a lot, and I also [...]
