I am having some trouble coming to grips with the ‘new’ me. I’m sure you all know her- the new, infertile me. The one who can’t seem to look at the world unless it’s through an infertile lens that colours everything she sees. A couple of things this week really drove this home. The first [...]
Archive for November, 2008
On a new axis
Posted in Emotions, ttc on November 30, 2008 | 4 Comments »
Onwards (and hopefully upwards…)
Posted in Emotions, ttc on November 27, 2008 | 1 Comment »
AF arrived with a vengeance yesterday, so I went in to the clinic today. We agreed that, although there was *just* enough time to squeeze in a cycle before Q. and I went away for Christmas, this probably wouldn’t get the holiday off to a good start (think trying to do an IUI literally the [...]
Diagnosis- not pregnant, just crazy
Posted in Emotions, ttc on November 22, 2008 | 10 Comments »
BFN again. I am done with analyzing symptoms and getting my hopes up. It is just getting too hurtful. This time I cried when the nurse told me- I hate crying around other people.
Q. has planned a dinner involving runny cheeses and booze, so there is some small comfort. I’m just not sure how many [...]
So I’ve decided… (12dpo)
Posted in Emotions, ttc on November 21, 2008 | 1 Comment »
that if I am not pregnant (which I will know tomorrow, around 3pm to judge by when the clinic usually calls), I am NEVER discussing “symptoms” again. Ever.
Because if this isn’t pregnant, then my body or the progesterone or something is an ass.
My bbs still hurt (and squeezing them to see if they hurt when [...]
Afraid to hope (8dpo)
Posted in Emotions, ttc on November 17, 2008 | 3 Comments »
I’ve been doing an ok job of distracting myself- I guess the first week always goes by relatively quickly.
But it’s getting harder and harder to convince myself that every day is just ordinary (even with the progesterone and the pills).
Yesterday my bbs started to hurt. It got progressively worse all day, and they are really [...]
Nothing left to do but wait… (Cycle #3, Day 14)
Posted in Emotions, ttc on November 10, 2008 | 6 Comments »
Second IUI went smoothly. Q’s numbers were a little down from last cycle, but we still finished with over 70 million swimmers. All three eggies popped at some point yesterday according to the ultrasound, so Q’s already back to talking to the ‘twins’.
So now, we wait. And I don’t have all the distractions from the [...]
And…go! (Cycle #3, Day 13)
Posted in Emotions, ttc on November 9, 2008 | 3 Comments »
It’s been a bit of a hectic weekend, so I haven’t had a chance to post- hope I didn’t leave any of you hanging.
Ended up getting the trigger shot yesterday (day 12), so the eggies got one more day to ripen up. Today two were measuring over 20 (they were “gorgeous” according to the fs), [...]
Whoa Nelly! (Cycle #3, Day 10)
Posted in Emotions, ttc on November 6, 2008 | 4 Comments »
Two days ago I was excited about ovulating on day 14. I’d warned Q. that Monday he’d have to come to the clinic with me.
Today I’ve got two follies measuring at 17, and more behind them. My fs thinks I’ll get the HCG shot tomorrow. The IUIs will probably be Saturday and Sunday (if we [...]
Feast or famine…
Posted in Uncategorized on November 4, 2008 | 2 Comments »
That’s how it is with my ovaries. Went to the clinic today and was told that I’m responding “very well”. So we confirmed that Q. and I are willing to cope with selective reduction if it comes to that. And I was sent off for another two days of Pure.gon.
The last couple of days I’ve had really [...]
